I don't always get it.

God's timing, I mean.

The biggest example I have is everything that happened with my grandma. Near the end of September 2013, she had a stroke. She survived, only because my mom found her when she did. My grandma became angry after this - my grandpa died in June 2007, and all she wanted since then was to join him.

So, she gave up. She didn't do any of the therapy, she didn't take any of the medication. She became really, really angry at my mom (because my mom found her and didn't just leave her there to die - sounds morbid, I know, but that's the truth). And I'm reasonably sure she was angry at God for this happening. The only things that made her truly happy were Allyson and Caileigh (my brother's daughter).

And somehow, she hung on for two years before she finally passed away this past September.

I prayed fervently this entire time. That God would heal her or take away her pain and finally let her join my grandpa. Why did it take two years? Was He trying to teach someone something? And who was He trying to get this across to?

God does things in His time. I honestly don't get it, sometimes.

Which is why I need Him and continue to seek Him.

Maybe that was it - I should continue to seek Him, always.

Or maybe that wasn't it and He was just trying to get my grandma to forgive and accept Him again. I'm not sure. What I am sure about, though, is that I will continue to seek His guidance, and acknowledge His presence and spread His love.